i'm back

it has been a very long time since i last posted my blog. to be precise since i got my result. since then mmg dh hepy sgt coz we all make it to go to england. b4 kua result, bukan men nervous post mcm2 kat blog. after that, mmg x ingat duniala enjoy kan....nothing to be discussed...only enjoy the life to the fullest. only do wat i wanna do.....

by the way, sadly, i will be having not much time jugak after this due to the fact that i'll be working as a teacher starting from tomorrow...sounds challenging and thrilling isnt it? b4 the exam, yes, it did...but now, i wonder why i feel so reluctant to go....new environment, surrounded by school children....change is juz painful for me. especially when i feel so secured with my life...but it's gud in a sense that i get to do sumthing rather than juz sit at home busy gaining weight

friday i'll be doing my mantoux test...juz to know wether or not i've got this disease called tb. it' s funny how life works. i'm so terrified of injection that i never thought it was painless at all....i didnt have the gut even to look at it when the physician was taking my blood. n he juz laughed at my expression after everything was done.it's so funny when i juz made a fool of myself by awkwardly asking is he going to take my blood some more? hahaha....stupid...

yeah...i am stupid indeed..since i was small, i memang awfully afraid of cut n blood, only if it happens to me la kan...dlm violent movies xpe...coz i know they juz fake it...but in real life, even a small cut at my finger i can scream like hell. n that juz annoys everyone near me...especially my lil sis who usually asks me to stop exagerrating. now let me make it clear to all of u, i am not exaggerating.....i juz cant stand the thought of having a cut finger! if u dont believe me juz ask my housemates..they all are very well aware of my disease y satu ni....juz cant help itla...it's juz my nature to exaggerate cut...haha.

this evening, my uncle was taken into the nearest for experiencing his glucoma...again. it's kind of scary to us u know...hypoglucose ni jd bile kite pass out ncan be fatal if u dont get conscious for some time...my aunt kate she was scared to death facing such situation when her brother didnt wake up untill she had to call the ambulance...anyway, who wont? hopefully he'll take a gud care of himself after diz...

k, need to pack my things for the next stage of life...till i log in again.

MY TRIP TO GENTING HIGHLAND...

find the difference...xde keje

result is today

this waiting is torturing me. someone pliz do sumthing so that i wont suffer diz any longer....it's almost one, n we still got nothing...no phone call, no news at yahoo group....i wish i can fast forward diz life so dat i would have known my result by now...oooooooooooooohhhhhhh...............

result is tomorro!

dear blog,

i'm dead. not really dead...but i feel like i am. in other words, i'm drowning in the sea of nervousness waiting for the result that will be unofficially out by tomorro n looking forward to sleep tonight so that i can face yesterday as soon as possible...really cant wait...yesterday was sis's bufday n she'll be home tomorrow... well, i am no longer happy to get this anxiousness over with, instead, i'm too scared to face my future...Ya Allah..help me...i should pray harder now...

yesterday i cooked for the whole family as my mom is away attending a course somewhere in terengganu n it turned out that i'm not a bad cook after all. despite some of my ungrateful sisters kept complaining that my soup is ayam masak kurma, i am still damn proud of myself for they survived the day with my cooking.

ini bukan masak kurma ek, tp sup

kobis goreng ala zz

n this afternoon, it was ipah's turn(my little form 4 sister). i wonder why her cooking is always better than mine. mine always less salt ar..less sugarl...itu ar...ini ar...sometimes i juz know that i was not meant to be in kitchen...ngeh3..nk kene look for maidla ni.ape pnye foreshadowla...i hope my cooking wont horrified my husband in future though...

ipah's menu...x bes lnsung

ok...enough with da merapu thing...now let'sfocus on my result..i wish i pass..that's all i want...nothing else...n then i can start shopping, and shop till i drop...i hope not drop deadla ek....

i have to admit that i am about to die of nervousness here...we are waiting for a call tommoro...a dreadful call...nobody wants to get it.neither do i..feel like turning my phone off so i wont get it...wat a foolish action kan....but that's the only thing that i can think of right now...

one bz girl

i've been one bz girl for the past few days,hehe, tpu je... last night i watched scary movie 4 y x scary lansung. boring dowh...for those movie goers, they will agree wif me that the story has no motif at all...because it is the nature of mine to complain about anything that come across my eyes, i just cant help it.

it was a good day to go out for sure...but people like me would prefer something more challenging like attempting some stupid quiz on facebook haha...i cant believe our results is juz one week away! i completely forgot how time flies when we are home n i am currently enjoying diz blissful holiday...

i always find it hard to sleep at night, but last night was different. looks like my biological clock is facing a changing process which allows me to sleep early..that's weird.

here are some more pics...

z y kene dukung tu..

banjir...i'm the one y kepala besar tu

zz y blouse pink tu

beby zz

me n mama

bring back the memories...

yesterday i was busy digging up all the family photos and albums that wan has kept away from us all diz years...n here are some old shots that i would like to share with u guys...p/s. i'm the one yg kecik tu...the older girl tu ika, my beloved sis...

typical girl

i was up after 2 this afternoon n dat's quite a record...i'm terribly dissapointed with myself...here i am with an uspent energy doing nothing more than surfing the net and watching television..without wan around to pick on me today, i'm free to do watever i want...as if i got a lot of mission to be completed...

i did however resolve to lose some weight...hehe...typical girl...n dat will mean a lot of dieting and not eating session. haha...anorox ke ape aku ni...my cheek is giving me a problem n i need to do sumthing bout it...how is dat gonna happen since exercising is juz painful to me?someone told me to juz cut it off...very thoughtful of him..n he will be responsible for my bleeding to death....

n one more thing that i noticed here...asik muke noh dgn kak mer jek dok mengomen..hehe...it's quite obvious dat we have neglected our previous social network kat myspace..haha...serve it right!

i'm home

dear blog,

finally, i'm home. n surprisingly, i dunno wat to do...wat has happened to all my list of things to do during the holiday? i've no idea where to start...by the way,i'm giving up in winning sumone's heart...i cant stand it anymore. to replace this pain, i am tring to get myself occupied with planning my vacation, i'll do watever it takes to get rid of this feeling. it's so much easier to go than face all diz pain here all alone. wounds so deep they never show but they never go away...i'll take the shame to the grave..hehe.emola plak.i missed kak mer like hell already....

3 months of holiday

holiday destination? genting sounds nice but i am soooo tempted with water theme park or to be precise, sunway lagoon. is it too much to ask for both? last time i'd been to genting was way back in primary school, when kfc hour was still my number one favourite tv show.

and sunway lagoon? yet to be discovered... i better make up my mind while i still have a good financial status. otherwise i will have to dig deeper into my pocketla kan...but when? my sis told me to wait for her, but i'm dying to main air in waterpark ni haa...

enjoying life after the result sounds a lot better i think. at least, i wont be burdened with so much unpleasant thought during my relaxation. every single hour can be cherished to the fullest...body and soul free..haha. now that reminds me of one of the words which have been banned in my house=EXAM. n some few other words that i cant write here sbb die dh kene banned kan...

perhaps best of all, i get to spend every single cent of my allowance for anything right now n that will make my day lovelier than ever. holiday, here i come...

it's almost 11 and i need to pack up my things n get lost from kl. i'm sick of this place, to be frank. in my hometown maybe, or juz maybe the grass is greener...why am i so reluctant to take my bath ni...procrastination is taking place again i guess.

my three girls

the topic today is quite exciting for me. i've attempted a quiz on how many children will i get only to find out that i'll be getting 3 girls. hehe. kurafat sume tu. rezeki sume di tangan tuhan kan. t kalo ye pn ape salahnye... i don care as long they are my 3 sweet and healthy little girls...

now, it's time for me to name my beautiful little girls. the first born, i will name her zulaika, a very beautiful name i would say. i purposely envy my sister for getting it first. n for my second born, it will be humaira' which simply means, yang kemerah-merahan, n for the third one, i havent thought bout it yet. any idea? anyone can help me here..n i usually go for one word name coz it sounds great n it is great as well for the name to stand on its own...

for my boy, if i happen to get one, i will probably name him mustaqim, a name which i had thought of giving my son since i was kid. u might think a very futuristic girl i am, but to tell u the truth i really am. every human has the capability of dreaming and i am no exception...

i've been way busier last night than i've expected to be. n here i am experiencing this great feeling. great feeling of what ek? for me to know, for u to figure out....

result on 10th of june

still in ipba. i'm just few weeks away from my resut. the declaration of flying overseas... the thougth of getting results is killing me. my roomate has gone home n i'll be following her footsteps later.... or tomorro myb? kak mir was nowhere to be seen when i woke up early diz morning n i've got no idea where is she.hmm... part of the reason why i stil have not moved out from here is procrastination. feel like asking myself, wat da hell am i waiting for?

i could spend hours in front of the screen, surfing the world wide web which is the main contributor to my soring eyes. probably thinking that i'm not gonna make any significant role at home, i've decided to stay for couple more days. actually, i was thinking of leaving this morning, but due to some unexplainable reason, i woke up late today thus preventing me from making my move. n that's about it.

n dear blog, i've got sumthing to tell u, i'm so happy right now. love is in the air. yeah, u heard me right. i love myself more than ever!

birthday girl's wish: i wish i'll be off in september for a good start....n for him to love me someday.hahaha...

pathetic

totally got carried away with my phone. pathetic... i am completely obsessed with everything right now...from my new phone to surfing the net. thank God we still have wireless here in ipba...otherwise i would have flee back to my hometown by now coz spending time in ipba without wireless seems pointless to me even if i have to bear with my annoying siblings for the next 4 months. after experiencing some unsignificant events such as going to the wisma putra department of foreign affairs before the holiday, i know it's time for me to go back n u know wat, i'm going to do exactly dat!