still nothing

wut diz blogging stuff and staying late at night has turned me into? a zombie. strangely enough, my emotion of watching violent movies didnt turn out well lately. the more i watch, the more i cant stand it anymore...n why is this happening to me?i couldnt even bear with a normal n not so scary scene these days...myb it's juz time for me to switch genre into sumthing more sentimental...

frankly speaking, having nothing much to do is not always fun. i've discovered dat lately. u never can tell untill u are in the real situation urself. spending my birthday bonus is harder than it seems when u have no one to call. sigh...

my housemates, they are going to the zoo to see the People of the nature. i hope they're gonna have a beatiful n refreshing weekend. as for me, i'm not a nature person n never thought of being one. guesss animals can hardly please me the way internet does...particularly animal lovers wont find diz funy as i do.

so here it is sunday, n tomorrow will be monday's turn.

holiday resolution

learn how to cook

btn da sequel

let's forget bout btn. saje je letak title btn kat ctu. couldnt think of anything else. 2 more days here n i'm gone from ipba. hopefully forever. don have the gut to imagine myself resitting for the referral. referral...the word has been banned in my community.

having nothing else to study, we were f.....g bored. n due to that reason, juz now i went out with kak mir to midvalley with nothing in our mind. when i say nothing, i seriously mean it. it happened to kak mir when she has absent-mindedly left her stuff at the counter. thank God they didnt cost her a lot.

absent-mindedlyla jugak i bought fadhly his dream control car. i know he'll be damn excited bout it. boys always be boys..n not to forget that i got myself some unfamiliar books that i had been eyeing for so long..for it is a stock clearance so they only cost me 20 for 4 books. for a person like me, i would say they are worth it. after all, reading is not as painful as writing an essay on cloning...

looking forward to get done with the letter of good conduct thing. hopefully everything will run smoothly.

one thing is true, it's always a brand new day!

btn part 1

it's the other way round. i mean, our experience in kem ulu sepri. wat those people have been talking about btn all diz while is far from reality. at least in our case, it doesnt apply...i believe that kem bina negara has its own agenda of brainwashing us, that is for sure...

but life is not bed of roses.unfortunately, i had to celebrate my sweet 20 there. i would say it was the most x best birthday that i've evr had. u know, people like me, with very few friends. i felt lonely. but miss kon must had felt a lot worse. without us there to wish her bfday. but some of us did send her msgs earlier on. actually,, i wish nobody would remember, but they just spoiled everything.

looking back, i was kinda ashame of myself for not memorizing the lyric of keranamu malaysia. i never bother bout making fool of ourselves on the stage but i felt extremely guilty towards encik mad for turning his nightmare into reality...

n jpa students, they are not getting jpa scholarship for nothing. a very high attention span they have n i wonder how we, the teachers to have the ability to sleep no matter how. very flexibel that we can adjust ourselves to sleep everywhere. when i say everywhere, i really mean it. myb bcoz we have practised a lot. practice makes perfect kan...

to be continued...

pre btn

i've got a solution here. a very good one. i'm going to bring my phone jugak. no matter wat. there is no way i'll let my one and only bonus to be wasted away. i've been loyal to celcom since forever n if i dont get to use this reward, it will really piss me off. yeah, u heard me right,piss off!!! more than pissed off i think.

let me tell u how unexcited i am with this btn stuff. by the way, wat is btn doing between me and my total freedom ek? i wonder if i can bear with it any longer. i've been travelling on this road too long...trying to find my way back home, the old me has dead and gone....

surrounded by white school uniform schools is juz an eyesore, especially when u are going to be in school for the next 20 years or so (if i'm still alive). mind me, i still got a pile of white clothes to iron jugak. tell u wat, btn sucks!

mom told me not to be overexcited coz....i dunno why. wat happen to my plan going for a trip to genting ek? hope it's still on, otherwise i'll kill shud. but looking at my financial status, i'll be grateful jugak. plus, a friend of mine did tell me dat it's so hot up there now, n i dont think it is welcoming at all.

neway, hope i'll be doing ok n come back in one piece. c ya after dat, my dearest blog!

MY COMEBACK

my bed my life...

gud news. i'm making my come back. finally, we have come to the term of total freedom. ermm...not really..still need to go through btn...really annoying..but let's juz save those swearing words for another time k. thinking bout btn really gives me a headache. why on earth do we need to go through such thing. obviously, complaining seems to become my favourite pastime nowadays...

there were a lot things happen this morning and my friends and i have undergone things that we call blessing in disguisse. firstly, it was a long queue at the photostat machine, then a lect asked us our mtrx card, my frend kept running to the toilet, having to return some books at the library, waitng for com o oath untill 4, n finally went to buy several plain white shirts for btn. not to mention the fidea dat i'm going home tomorro due to some rdiculous reason that i strongly refuse to mention here...

still, i wont worry my life for that kind of small thing. wat's the point of wasting time worrying when you can use it for enjoying. haha....i'm body and soul free right now.as free as a bird....bird pn x as free as me...

but one thing that i really pissed of bout this btn thing is that it's gnna spoil my long waiting of my birthday bonus. i'm not gonna let my useless sis to use it coz i dont like her that much. n she doest like me either n i don give damn bout that. i need to find the way out or else my long waiting will end up in vain. come on, think harder z, should i juz bring it along...or should i not...looks like i need some help here.

COMEBACK

study corner

bad news, kok gimoh nk wat comeback! she gotta be kidding us. looking forward nk abuse kitorangla tu. malehnye nk lyn..bru je plan nk bgn lambat sok.. mmg rse nk ponteng kelas membuak-buak wey...menggelegak darah muda aku ni y masih panas...ape barang kelas2 nih..dpt duit ke g kelas tu?ingat best sgt ke ha? aaaahhh....persetankanla sume ni, aku nk brambus sok, to haikal, boleh ar tulis in advance kat aku nye kedatangan tu...tulis kat ctu study leave ek, haha..ala, bukan slalu nk wat hal pn

ok, now, it's time for me to reflect on the paper this morning, i find the paper is quite ntah ape2la...but ma'am said that the real one will be a lot harder than this one. n that scares the hell out of me..i'm well aware of the fact that it will be far from easy, but the confirmation from ma'am has juz validated my sense of insecurity...

one thing i dunno why, i'm having difficulties in organising my points. dh tu lak, x well-elaborated lak tu...camne ek? need a lot of practise, tpnye i'm running out of time, n paying more attention to spot questions seems like a very inevitable thing to do right now, everyday, i keep reading the same notes about cloning, water pollution, n overpopulation.. wat if all those x kua? i'm afraid that i'll be the one y kene kua nnt...this is one of the disadvantages of spotting question, it will ruin our future. in conclusion, we shouldnt leave sumthing like this to a chance should we? we have to touch on everything, touch n go pn xpela..

it's the global warming again n i'm having a very bad sore throat everytime i wake up from sleep. ckap pasal tdo, i wonder if i got an insomnia. or is it juz myself? staying awake untill morning has becoming my habit for the past few weeks. due to the exam stress kot.myb that explains all those tiresome face n the development of my panda eyes...my faith in sleep is fading...

gotta do sumthing else.so long...

NIGHTMARE

squatter area. fyi, diz is not my bed

juz woke up from a terrible nightmare.lately i've been dreaming of facing difficulties to answer the paper...in that troublesome dream, i forgot to answer section B tp sempat lg nk g toilet tu...nape ek. is it an omen or sumthing? ke foreshadow the evil that ...e...mntak dijauhkanla dr segala bencana malapetaka...sometimes people say that dream will turn out the other way round, tp x taula kan...the moral value is basuh kaki seblom tdo..kalo xnk mimpi fail exam...

6 more days...i felt like there's a buttefly in my stomache. is there a butterfly in my stomache by any chance? where is revision week when i need one? i don need people to tell me wat i should do now...i'm stressed out. last night was damn awesome man, i got to download numbers of clip video n a movie. cool, huh? can u imagine how excellent the connection was till i managed to download a complete movie from youtube? kak mir told me bout diz movie n it has got sumthing to do with cloning.haaa.....cloning...for those who are tempted to answer cloning during the exam, the movie is highly recommended for you guys.(pdhal aku pn x tgk lg, jap g ah...)

tomorro we got no pai class, guess i may have plenty of time to stay up late again..k ar, kak mir dh ajak tgk cite the island, till then...

INSOMNIA

juggling between all those jargons? here is the solution

i've been forcing myself to sleep since midnight n it turned out i failed the task again. i really think if there is sumone to doze off tomorro morning during class, it's gonna be me. come onla, we dont need classes anymore. at least i dont need it. bukannye nk jd utterly vain ke hape, but why cant they juz leave us alone? as for me, i go for self study lg. n having classes n tons of input to be stuffed into my head doesnt sound helpful at all. i was thinking of excusing myself from any class for the whole week. hehe apa aku pikir ini maktab bapak aku y pnye.the truth is, i cant digest the input if i am asked to but when i'm free to do sumthing on my own, i'll be willing to do anything or watever it will cause me to pass the paper. because live or die, i have to make my choice. thank God tomorro's gonna be the last contact for ldv class. only God knows how relieved i am...

okla, as a part of revision, let us look into this matter of overpopulation which has brought us face to face with the question of how long human being can sustain on this planet. if the rather dimwitted dinosaur tu can perish forever after thriving on earth for million years, human record is far younger.(x abis2 dgn teori dinosaur aku) by using all the advantages we human being posses, kite patut kekalkan kedudukan kite sbg pemegang record dunia! hehe... eventhough population growth is at an alarming rate. we should maintain our kemandirioan spesies. hahaha.according to Malthus theory....ape y si Malthus tu ckap ek? x ingatla mende die merepek sbb byk sgt teorinye...

the more i know, the more i know i dont know, so better i don study at all kan...

EXAM STRESS

given the fact that i still have one more week to sit for the final paper, i'd rather enjoy this sleepless night, sitting here worrying bout the exam. everytime i start to hold any book, i keep telling myself that i'm not gonna let myself resit for the exam. it'll be a great shame for me if i have to resit. the voice at the back of my head is telling me to juz relax...need not to worry... be confident, i'll do well coz God is incharge but the more i think about failing, the more i get overly anxious n it is actually the main reason that prevents me from doing my reading right now...n there is still sumthing in my head, i dunno how to tell diz, but it's still bothering me n i'm still struggling to forget bout it....i dont even have any thesis statement here but keep writing things. i should stop blogging for awhile. but i'm still wondering, why do we need exam?


sbg memujuk ati y lara, i'll try to cheer myself upla, hmm...my N78, i'm waiting for u...hah, i'm looking forward to show off my new mobile to everybody....wat's wrong with me? gile ke ape.mcm xpnah ade phone je. i love my aunt for buying me the phone. but of course i'll never show it. we never do that in our family...tbe2 teringat, kete control fadli x beli lg ni...tah cukup x duit... hmm nk buat ape ek...my stomache is grumbling n i'm used to this international sign of hunger nampaknye. but wat is there to be stuffed into my face nih. we hardly have anything in the kitchen. since everyone is busy with the exam,dapur lame dh x berasap.sakit perutla. bek g tdo. by.