dear life, gimme a break

forgive me for writing this pointless entry. again, my entries are all pointless. last night was the first night of last tenth. means lailatulqadar is around the corner.n i find myself here staring at the screen thinking hard of wat to think. of course this i do after i've finished the witir kan. now, let's proceed with the ranting. if u think talking nonsense is fun, then it is.

ok, this is the thing: today, everyone will be home. my sis, my sis, my sis, n finally my sis will be back for my departure. on top of that, everyone will be sending me off this weekend. n isnt dat awesome? i will be the person of the day. i love the sound of it. hopefully i'll be juz fine dealing wif all the forget-me-not session. well, crying will be part of the celebration. wat a farewell it will be.

for over the past few days, i was so boring. honestly, since even before that, i was also bored to death.i'm about to start my life in a whole new way. yet, why dont i feel happy at all? too scared too feel happy i guess. the thought of messing up really freaks me out. i always mess up. that's the sole reason why i've done wif packing almost three months ago. see, how excited i was.

packing is really messing up wif me lately. but the gud news is, i only have 20 sumthing. n i'm thinking hard right now wat to put in order to maximize the weight. how i love a light luggage n i'm having a good time right now deciding the next item to bring...n at certain point of sanity, i choose to bring anchovy.

before moving on to this next phase in life, there are things i need to settle. some loose ends that needs to be tied up. or in other words, some housekeeping matters. like feeding my fish for the very last time? ha, i'm bluffing i don even have a fish to start on. or fighting wif sis n smack her like i always do? coz pasni xleh nk smack dh. i'll be missing them so much. ..n mom, i'll be missing u as well n not to forget all the nagging. i'm sorry for not being there to listen to it anymore. hehe...

p/s: i've lost some weigth

till then, so long family.