the good morrow

tomorrow i'll be off to london. for the msd raya celebration. we'll depart quite early in the morning. try to find some sweet time enjoying the trip maybe? or juz in case we get lost, we might have some spare hours to wander hopelessly around london city. i suppose some friends of mine are already there in london. but this is not a race to the finish line so it's ok. eventhough i am entirely excited bout this trip, taking the responsibility to go there on our very own is giving me a fright of getting lost in one of the most well known city in the europe .wat a pessimist person i am. one of my friends keeps telling me that. n i couldn find any reason not to agree wif her. yes, i am a pessimist person. i juz love to view things in a very negative way. i juz cant help it. always think of the worse, my aunt did tell me.



for sure, some of my friends will put on their best outfit for there are going to be a lot of malaysians students at the function. n mind u, there are all students. n students are educated. n girls like educated guys. so, it's a simple maths, the chance of meeting someone there is as high as catching a cold during winter. haha. wat an unwelcoming joke. never thought of taking part though. i wonder if someone would ever become interested in lying his eyes on me. i always appear poor and unattractive. that's why.down to earth abis.



unexpectedly, we are already given some reading to do by the lecturers in the earlier classes and they needed to be done before our next classes. even so, the idea of interpreting that 'good morrow' thing on our own has turned me into a living zombie. or in other words, i cant even tell u guys wat it is all about. i doubt it if anyone in my class can. looking up for things in the internet is a taboo set by mike n i would not want myself to get used to it.wif all the plagiarism software n stuff like that, it would be better if i get used to keeping my brain in an active mode. but, after reading it like several times it is still too poetic and abstract i cant hardly tell the geez of it. n now, googling it it seems more tempting than usual. oh my, hopefully by reading it for few more times, i can see the light at the end of the tunnel.





i've been eating my own nasi goreng from the past few days n i'm sick of it. why cant i eat something else? kfc ke, mcd ke. coz eating is the only way to survive a boring moment like this. i mean, is there anything else? somewhere deep inside here i miss my family. i frankly do. ema is right. the difference in timezone is separating us. i may sound homesick but i am. discovering i am miles away from family, i feel lonely. oh my God, i AM homesick. n my credit is running zero. i am conciously aware of my feeling now, and it is homesick. got a lot of things rushing into my head now. cant stay focus anymore. gotta go.