more rants

dear bloggie

finally, the nightmare is over, thanx to bandura for making my life easier. one down, two more to go. plizla kevin dont mess up with me. and the macro teaching, should be fine. never had i thought those students are much worse than us. what's the point of presenting it if u juz read it aloud? better if u juz hand in the written essay. i'm glad that we have shown them who's in charge. come onla, they have the ability to speak fluently, why dont juz make full use of it. we here are struggling with the language and all these craps, and u juz took no effort at all.

enough with all these stupid assgnments rants of mine. well, about the horror class, we had wif mike juz now, i didnt really see what he means by horror. it was juz soooo lame...for me that was nothing compared to all the gory scenes i've watched my whole life. pardon me for being so boastful but i juz cant help it. horror movies have always been the most favourite piece of entertainment in my life and when he suddenly comes into it and telling me what horror is, i juz cant stand it anymore. he knows practically nothing about horror. haha...

swimming

previous entry was juz a lame attempt to get rid of my feeling at that time. it wasnt quite true. really. in fact i've been enjoying my life to the fullest these days. well, if ur hobby is collecting stamps, u will feel inferior talking to me now as i enjoy swimming as my favourite pastime.haha...(booo) perhaps it takes some drowns to be able to swim and now i can finally swim! haha.

technically, i've got another three days before submitting the portfolio. cracking my head for macroteaching ideas. struggling with theories of Jarvis for learning biography. what more is the performance's almost here! adoi too much things at a time. surviving this assignment season. where is spring when i really need it? recently,i dreamt of sumthing bad happened. Astaghfirullahalazim....

moral value of the story: b4 tdo basuh kaki!

random thought

my life is awful! i wish i could shut it down!

i'm feeling rich

anyone?

koya...pemilik blog y full of herself

cacat~(-_-')

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10 ways to waste time

i know that, being a teenager is the most confusing time in my life. life as a teenager in university so far for me has been fairly assignments and assesment.n today we have got back the marks for our ict assignments. n i'm glad that i pass this one too. forget the far-fetched A, but as far as i'm concerned, all i need to do is juz pass.ok, let's face this, i aint no good at assgnments.n never will.i have been wasting my time too much and if there is one thing i am gud at in this world, it is wasting time! anyhow, since that allowance is till some way off, let's waste ur time too by looking at how exactly i waste my time effectively..

1. trying to beat the hell out of kasparov chessmate i've downloaded from the internet(easy level pdhal, haha) the player always outsmart my instinct, but still, it's hard for me to give up the believe that i'm good at playing chess! i was born to play chess my dad used to tell me...

2. blogstalking complete strangers (it is soo much fun)

3. pretending hard to be a good cook by everyday cooking nonsense( trying out new ridiculous recipes, all that involves onions because i seemed to have developed this ridiculous fear of garlic!)

4. practise magic card tricks (so i can perform some skilfull trick to ivon again on the next birthday party)

5. learning french from the cd and dictionary my sis sent me. (it is tought to be a contemporary and sophisticated language and the language of love my sis said, n i fall for that trick)

6. jamming in my own room(me sucks at plucking)

7. looking at the photos of garden....and flowers...(it makes me fall in love again)

8. reading the sexology part in psychology magazine and also the lucrative topic like hundred ways to loose weight, get rid of those calories,banish belly fat or something like that(the former occupier of my house hasnt stopped her subscription so yeah i juz make the most out of it)

9. check out the latest csi series and video bangang kat utube untill my eyes sore!

10. sleeping is probably the most effective ways to waste time for a hopeless person like me. not the night sleep which is of course, beneficial.


and i finally i would juz end up staring at these four walls again and try to think about the last time i had a gud time...only by looking at this list,i realise that i've wasted more time than i will care to admit!

my lovely lil brother

wonder where did he get that cowboy hat?

in my busy life, though i know it, i don't find time to realize how much i love the ones closest to me: my parents and siblings. but now, away from family for quite sometimes, I realized it pretty strongly!, this is my younger brother mohd zulfadhli. the spoiled one in the family and he has got the attention of evrybody! including me. given the fact that he is the only boy we have and the youngest one, he is the central love of evryone in the family. the fact that he has been through so much at such an early age always hurts me. sis told me that mum is gonna be transferred quite far from home this time(selangor if i am not mistaken) and that leaves him with no one but my aunt to look after him. i cannot imagine how lonely he must be. i know he can cope well wif evrything, he always does. but he's only a nine year old boy after all. (although he doesnt look like one). i feel so hopeless right now for not being able to call him and hear his naughty little voice which always insists me on buying some cool stuff for him so that he can show them off to his friends. as far as i could remember, he is such a sweet lil boy no one can resist to love. he rarely gets on my nerves like my other sisters always do and he'll do obediently watever i told him too. was it love or fear? i dunno either. but i'm pretty much sure how nice he can be to us. i still remember the day he offered to buy me a nice ice cream when he has got some little money with him and i could choose the best one in the store. how funny he is, i should say. the way he asked me some silly questions, too silly i couldnt help myself laughing. looking back, i'would give anything for that moment now. i dunno why but such thoughts always make me miss home more than ever. as i write this down, i can feel the tears pooling in my eyes.more than ever, i'm very proud of this little person in my life!

london outing

'i was thinking of u and u only'

as u may have noticed, i rarely blog stuff out recently. and i am not ashamed of it.not at all. well, here's the catch, when i decided to buy a bag of tiny teddy bears on boxing day, pardon my 5 year old mind but they were half price! so i started to think maybe after diz i could do the same thing when buying souvenirs for my family. frankly, when i buy anything in bulks, for example the half price teddies on boxing day, i told myself that they are supposed to be the items which every single person on this planet will love to receive. u know like some kind of generic gifts and when u decide to buy them u have no particular person in mind? yes! that is exactly what i mean. as a matter of fact, i thought it was a brilliant idea.but it is very far from brilliant. it will become obvious to the person who receives the useless and pointless teddy bear that wat it says is actually 'i was thinking of u and other 27 people when i bought this'. screw me for that terrible idea. as tomorrow is gonna be my housemate best day, this idea is really not gonna work well, so i need to get her something very special.something that says, 'i was thinking of u and u only when i bought this'....emm....wat is it gonna be? anyone?

messing up again, that's me.

slm to those who happen to read this lame blog of mine. thank u for ur support. i t has been soo long since i last wrote something on this. firstly, sori if this blog is going to be full with personal stuff , feeling and emotion but i really feel like reflecting now. it was recently that too many things come together in my head and driving me nuts. and i have been dealing with too much pressure n feel like losing it. well, things have been sorted out but deep down, i know, Allah nk uji. la yukalifullah hu nafsan illa wus' a ha. x diuji seseorang tanpa kemampuannya. n i am no exception. bile renung balik i really need to do something about managing my anger. i was friggin mad last time and it was ugly. it was the crazest thing i have ever done! there was a time when i start thinking to pack my things and runaway. but that's ridiculous. home is thousand miles away. so i juz push the stupid thought to the back of my mind. i wish i'm gone. juz dissapear into the thin air, leaving no trace behind. i am fragile now and start to treat things very emotionally. i'd never allow this to happen before. as a result, i was badly damaged and traumatised by my own attitude. but see, i juz dont know how to stop it. there is something inside me that is really bad and sometimes it turns me into a monster. i know shouldnt let this evil side of me reign supreme. but it was a tragedy, and for those who i have wronged and sinned, pliz forgive me for i am not a good person. i love u guys more than i can say. if i could turn back time, i wouldnt do that. i would juz temper it in silence. and i've been thinking about this a lot, maybe what's missing is courage. courage to face i own sin. i'm a sinner. my life is messing up with me. God, forgive me for what i have done....

lucky me

i........pass.......the.......assignments.........Alhamdulillah....

snowy shots

aku paling x tahan nengok muke zu...



tiga serangkai memburu gelaran



posing asik same je x penah tukar. but this time, no jaris ok.

stonehenge

jason mraz

that's my jason mraz and he loves to play the guitar. bought on boxing day for 3 pounds. thanx a bunch to kak mir for the new duvet sheet she got me. lovely isnt it?

roman bath

p/s: i know i look as if i've gained some weight, but trust me, it's the winter coat

to ili whom i had songlap the bath photo from, thanx a bunch for the lovely shot!

windsor castle

p/s: windsor castle is the home of the royal family after buckingham, it is named after the royal family surname, windsor. in case u are not aware of this fact, prince william surname is windsor though a titled royal doesnt normallyuse their surname.